"Coming Out of
Fear"
A Sermon Preached by the Rev.
Deana Dudley
at Holy Fellowship Metropolitan
Community Church, London, Ontario
and
Christos Metropolitan
Community Church, Toronto, Ontario
22 June 2003
On that day, when evening had come, Jesus
said to the disciples, "Let us go across to the other
side." And leaving the crowd behind, they took him with
them in the boat, just as he was. Other boats were with
him. A great windstorm arose, and the waves beat into
the boat, so that the boat was already being swamped.
But he was in the stern, asleep on the cushion; and they
woke him up and said to him, "Teacher, do you not care
that we are perishing?" He woke up and rebuked the wind,
and said to the sea, "Peace! Be still!" Then the wind
ceased, and there was a dead calm. He said to them, "Why
are you afraid? Have you still no faith?" And they were
filled with great awe and said to one another, "Who then
is this, that even the wind and the sea obey him?"
Mark 4:35-41
Some of y?all have met my little dog, Kitty.
You may even have heard me tell about how she reacts to
thunder and lightning. First she starts to shake, and
then she starts this high-pitches whining, and then she
tries to climb up on top of ? I mean on top of the head
of ? the nearest human, me or Anne. Then, if the human
objects to that, she runs to the basement, jumps into
the bathtub, and just goes berserk. She tears up the
shower curtain with her claws and then, she just loses
it. I mean, she really loses it. The little dog is just
scared.... ummm.... witless. Poor little thing just
can?t handle storms. She?s terrified.
So it?s a good thing she wasn?t on the boat
with Jesus and the disciples in the storm on the Sea of
Galilee. ?Cause first off, I can tell you for sure that
Jesus would not have been sleeping in the stern of the
boat. When Kitty?s scared, nobody sleeps. Kitty would
have been right in there with the disciples, saying "DO
something!"
Which is basically what the disciples were
doing. Like the little dog, the disciples were scared,
um, witless. As well they might be. A bunch of them were
professional fishermen on the Sea of Galilee, so they
could imagine the calamity that was bearing down on
them. The wind comes whipping down the Golan Heights,
and you can go from dead calm to swamp the boat time in
just minutes. They were certain the boat was going to be
swamped any minute, and suddenly they realize there?s
Jesus in the back of the boat, sprawled out fast asleep
on a cushion, apparently unconcerned that they were all
about to die. And even though the storm didn?t wake him,
the disciples did, and they shouted at him, "Teacher,
don't you CARE that we?re perishing?" They wanted Jesus
to get himself up off of that cushion and lend a hand
with the bailing bucket.
But bailing out the boat was not actually on
Jesus? agenda. Which must have kind of annoyed the
disciples. Just when they really needed him, he was
sound asleep. They needed all hands on deck to try to
keep the boat afloat, to do their best to prevent what
looked like an inevitable capsize with the drowning of
all crew members. "Don't you care?" they cried. "This is
an emergency! If you don't get up and pull your weight
right NOW, we?re all going to drown." But Jesus didn't
do what they expected him to do. They expected him to
leap to his feet and join the team, bailing or grabbing
the oars, but he ignored the boat completely. Instead,
he went straight to the source of the problem. He
commanded the storm to subside. And the disciples
couldn?t believe it. What sort of a man were they
dealing with, who had power to still storms?
Now, I know that you know that we?ve all
faced some storms in our lives where we?ve been tempted
to yell at God, "Don't you care that I?m perishing
here?" If God exists and loves us, then why do we have
suffering in our lives and in the world? If God can calm
storms, why are we are still plagued by torrents and
downpours in our lives. If God can calm the storms in
our lives, explain, please, the Holocaust. If God could
quiet the turmoil in our lives, then explain ethnic
cleansing and domestic violence. If God can silence the
wind and the waves, then explain AIDS and SARS.
Suffering is a universal truth, and sometimes it tempts
us to raise a fist to heaven and shout, "God, don't you
care that we?re perishing?" And it wasn?t that he didn?t
care. It?s just that he wasn?t worried about the storm.
He trusted God, so he could sleep like a
baby.
So after the disciples have survived this
near-death experience, after they?ve witnessed this
expression of divine power, Mark tells us that "they
were filled with great awe, and said to one another,
?who then is this, that even the wind and the sea obey
him??" The literal translation of the phrase, "filled
with great awe" is that they "feared a great fear." They
were overwhelmed by the sheer magnitude of what had just
happened. I have a feeling that even after seeing what
Jesus was capable of, the disciples still feared what
this meant. Their big question wasn?t "How did he do
that?" but rather, "Who is this person?" And that made
them really afraid.
And Jesus acknowledges their fear, but
suggests to them that the opposite of fear is faith.
After he stilled the storm, he looked at the disciples
and said, "Why are you afraid? Have you still no faith?"
I don't think Jesus is berating them for being
inadequate or attacking them for their undeveloped
faith. Instead, I think Jesus just longed so desperately
for people to have the kind of faith in God that would
allow them to sleep through the storm. Jesus knows we
have fears, and yet he wants us to release those fears
so that we can find faith, hope, and love in God. Jesus
desires for us to find a redemptive relationship with
God, instead of dwelling in our fears and letting them
paralyze us. Jesus wants us to COME OUT of our fears,
and live in faith.
Easy for him to say, eh? See, we all have
fears. My fear of snakes is fairly well known. Kitty?s
scared of thunder, and fireworks, too. She?s really
going to enjoy Canada Day. You have your own list. No
one is fearless.
Fear and faith.... I think sometimes we think
of doubt and unbelief as the biggest barriers to faith.
But perhaps, more often than we realise, it?s actually
fear. Now, there?s a healthy fear that keeps us alive
and well. That keeps us from walking off of cliffs or
trying to cross the 401 at rush hour. And there?s a
healthy fear that moves us into action and that sends us
in prayer to God. That?s a fear that goes hand-in-hand
with faith. Sometimes fear?s a normal protective
response, but we can overdo it to a point where our
ability to act is paralysed.
You have an insert with a few acronyms on it,
for both fear and faith. You may find some of them
useful or entertaining. Or maybe not. But it contains
one of my favourite acronyms for fear, because it is so
true: False Evidence Appearing Real. Sometimes, we get
so caught up in what we fear, which may or may not ever
come to pass, that we can?t do anything. Case in point.
I remember when I was first coming to grips with being a
lesbian. It was a real struggle for me to come out to
people. I admit it; I was scared. I was afraid that
they?d reject me. I was afraid that they?d tell me I was
going to hell. I was afraid that I would believe them.
So, for a long time, I didn?t tell anyone I knew.
I used to "practice" on total strangers. Am I
the only one who ever did that? I?d tell them I was gay,
and see if I could stand their reactions. Mostly, they
were just bored. They didn?t care. But my fears kept me
from being open and honest with the people I cared
about, who cared about me. Like those disciples in the
boat, in the middle of the storm, I didn?t believe
anyone cared. And my fear truly was false evidence,
appearing real. And it kept me paralysed until one
stunning moment when I realized that hiding because I
wanted to be safe would not protect me from whatever was
headed my way. It is exactly as the late poet Audre
Lourde said: "When I use my power in service of my
vision, then it becomes less and less important whether
or not I am afraid. Your silence will not protect you."
All that energy spent on fear could be redirected into
enjoying the present. To pass up living an authentic
life because of the possibility of an event that was
unlikely.... to pass up living the abundant life God
called me to live because of the possibility of an event
that God could carry me through.... now THAT was to
drown in a stormy sea of fear.
But faith can overcome fear. Faith overcoming
fear means trusting that God has loved us, redeemed us
and called us children of God. Faith overcoming fear
means depending on all the resources that God makes
available to us as children. Faith overcoming fear means
that, while we may not know the details of life, we are
sure of the outcome. Your handout has some acronyms for
Faith. The one I like best is: "Forget About
Impossibilities ? There is Hope!" We have hope, even in
the impossible storms of life.
Do y?all know the song "The Edmund
FitzGerald" by a good ol? Canadian songster, Gordon
Lightfoot? This is the "Canadian Content" portion of our
sermon. Anyhow, that song?s about a storm on one of the
Great Lakes, and the sinking of a ship. And there?s a
line in the song that goes:
"Does anyone know where
the love of God goes
When the waves turn the minutes to
hours?"
What IS the answer to Lightfoot's question?
Where DOES the love of God go when the storms of life
swamp and overturn our lives?... when a little girl is
senselessly murdered?.... when a young man is beaten to
death for being gay?.... when we?re plagued by pain and
disease without ceasing?.... when we?re betrayed by
people we thought were friends?.... Where is the love of
God then?
Does anyone know where the love of God goes
when the storm clouds break over our lives?... when
people we love die?.... when we find ourselves unjustly
accused?.... when war rolls over whole nations, and it
seems like no one can stop it? Does
anyone know where the love of God goes when the waves
turn the minutes to hours?
When that happens, when the storm seems
to go on forever, I don?t know about you, but I
sometimes tend to try to usurp Jesus? place. When I was
looking at these acronyms the other day, Anne was real
blunt with me. She said she wished I?d learn some of
those things, about fear and faith. See, sometimes, I
get this mindset ? I dunno, you think maybe it?s a
control thing? ? that it?s all about me. That somehow
the calming of the storms around me is dependent on MY
faith. That it?s somehow my fault. That I can?t trust
God to do it for me. And believe me, when I do that,
it?s like the song says: the waves really DO turn the
minutes to hours/
And that?s not the point of this story. The
point is, when the waves turn the minutes to hours, the
love of God is right there. In the same boat with us.
And not only is that love there, but that love is there
with such power that, one day, there WILL be calm, the
storm WILL be ended, and what is broken WILL be made
whole. That?s the promise of God. And to believe in that
promise is to give up our illusions of
control.
So, when the storms of life threaten to
overcome us, when the power of fear starts to overtake
the power of faith, keep in mind the power of God. When
the power of hate begins to overcome the power of
love... keep in mind the power of God. When the power of
despair attacks the power of hope,... keep in mind the
power of God. When you wonder if it matters at all to
stand up for justice against the powers of injustice,
keep in mind the power of God. When people treat you
like a nobody,... keep in mind the God whose image you
bear, and whose strength gives you strength. Keep in
mind the power of God. Forget about impossibilities:
There is hope!
Sermon Resources Gratefully
Acknowledged: Peter Gomes, The
Good Book, "The Bible and Mystery", 1996; Robert
Smith, The Shaughnessy Pulpit, "When The
Waves Turn The Minutes To Hours" Vancouver, B.C., 1985;
Barbara Brown Taylor, Gospel Medicine,
"Striving With God"; Carla Thompson Powell, Timothy
ELCA, Livonia MI; Wayne Hilliker, Chalmers United
Church.